It’s been two weeks since my last post about Allan Pease, so you’ve been wondering about what’s going on. Nope, I’m not dead – still kickin’ :)
I didn’t write because I didn’t want to be like this:
When I first applied for the position, I thought the job would be boring as hell. I thought it would be the same routine day in and day out. And I applied anyway.
Why apply for a job you think would be boring? Money, of course.
Young people often think that enjoying your job is more important that enjoying your salary. But when you get older (like me), being able to take care of yourself becomes more important than enjoying you job. (By the way I’m 27.) If you have started your family, and especially if you have kids, you can’t let your personal happiness (jobwise) stand in the way of your common financial welfare.
So I thought the job would be boring but it turned out that…
THIS. JOB. IS. GREAT!
The job is also very demanding, but in a good way – in a way that makes me feel that what I do has meaning and helps my colleagues. (They are awesome! Except when they send me emails with empty subject-lines. When that happens I feel an urge to do something evil. But otherwise they are awesome!)
Of course, there was a very steep learning curve at the beginning. The industry is very specific and comes with a special terminology. At first it felt a lot like learning a new language. And that language has “words” like 64/19, coating, jumbos and stuff like that. (I bet if you’re an outsider listening to our conversation, we’ll seem like top secret nuclear scientists :)
(And what do you know, we might just be. 64/19. Yeah.)
THE DANCE SCHOOL
I leave for work at 8:00 and usually come home at 20:00, so POOF – there go 12 hours of my day! I look like someone’s punched me in the eye because I have dark circles from not enough sleep. I don’t have much time to shower. Or eat. Come to think of it, I’ll probably never be fat. Or reach forty.
And I was also extremely lucky to meet a wonderful, great, perfect man… :) I’d love to tell you more about him but I don’t want to jinx it, and also you know I’ve always tried not to give too much details about my personal life and the people in it. Sorry guys :)
What I meant to say is, I’d rather spend time with him than sit in front of the keyboard writing a new post. Syncing schedules is tough, and that’s why I’ve been slacking a little with the new posts.
YOUR BLOG OR YOUR LIFE ?
If I have to be honest with you, I was quite stressed at first – changing jobs during recession, thinking about love and money (or love without money), being constantly strapped for time and not having enough time to blog…
I sat myself down one evening and turned the TV on. I think it was “Storage wars” on History, but I’m not sure because I wasn’t really watching. I was staring blankly at the TV thinking about what to do.
I said to myself: so far, I’ve been blogging about money and also about getting rich. But I am not actually rich yet. Getting rich (or at least richER) basically conflicts with my blogging – I can either dedicate my time to blogging about money OR dedicate my time to actually making money.
Also, as much as the blog meant to me, having a personal life and time to sleep and shower were more important. (I’m still working on the sleep time, *yawn*)
I realized I can’t have it all. My job is exciting but exhausting. The dance lessons are exciting but exhausting. Dating someone is also exciting but exhausting. It’s hard enough trying to balance those three things, and when you chip in blogging time it becomes nearly impossible.
Strange as it is, but realizing this gave me peace. You can’t fit 25 hours in a 24-hour day, so there’s no point struggling with it.
A while ago my blog was pretty much the most important thing in my life. Well, my life has changed now, and for the better. So while I will still work on the blog, very much enjoying the process, I had to accept that I probably won’t be able to give it as much time as I’d like to. (Making my peace with that was a tough process, believe me.)
So, it’s out, and now you know why I skipped a post date. Sorry :) But don’t worry, I have a couple of drafts I’ve been meaning to get to, and I hope I’ll get to them during Christmas break.
I think you’ll like them, too ;)